She/Her

Author: Girl Up Rise

April 11, 2022

“I am both. Or maybe neither. Or better yet, maybe I am one and the same.” – Juhi Salim
She sleeps in my bed almost every night Tossing and turning, never finding it right Poking Her in the process all along I writhe under this constant tug of war.
She chooses to sprawl on the starboard Oaring me in by her process of thought Blackened by the taunts of tomorrow She teaches me to keep myself under wraps.
She listens to the lectures of my God Fighting battles against the neo-minded Shamed and Harassed for choosing different Everyday she loses a fight she had won yesterday.
Her, on the other hand prefers the left Being confident means being vulnerable I learned it from her amidst the whips of yesterday That conforming and checking boxes isn’t the way.
An apostle of liberation and pro-choice Fighting battles against the narrow-minded Shamed and Harassed for choosing different Everyday a new and uglier fight is lost by her.
And so, with right and left taken away I choose to settle in between them Letting she and her breathe equally within me Exhausted of the toll these expectations take on me.
There are neither mantras nor Mutiny in me Acres of conflict of past, present and future I am Shamed and Harassed for choosing myself My battles are within me and everyday I lose them. Unsurprisingly.
She and Her for decades are apart They have sparred us against each other You can be either she or her But I am both. Or maybe neither. Or better yet, maybe I am one and the same.